It happens like this.........everything seems bluer, greener, fresher, and you marvel at the design in everything, from hummingbirds to beautiful, old homes. Then you wake up one day, and something feels a little off, like a picture hanging slightly crooked. The spiral begins. Within four days, you will become a lesser version of yourself, ashamed, self-loathing, and cutting your body to punish the soul. And the cycle goes on, and on, and on........